Back To School

We have been awaiting this day and counting down for some time, well, especially since Cyrus started school!  Still, I was feeling blue dropping my girls off at school.  We have been getting ready for the school routine, knowing there is nothing I can do to keep it from coming.  Here we are.  My girls are now back to school.

                                                         
                                                         Treva - 7th grade

                        Katreese - 4th grade

They are just growing up way too fast!!  It doesn't seem right, especially today!  I knew the girls were getting excited to get back to school and see their friends again (which I was glad for.)  Bella had a hard morning.  She doesn't really transition to change very well!  She has begged me to let her go to school.  "Please, Mommy!" she says to me.  I told her that she was lucky to have school at home with Mommy and Eden.  This has helped her but then today she told me, "Mommy, I don't really want to be home with you."  In other words, she wants to be at school with the big girls.  It doesn't seem right that she is always trying to grow up - way too fast, as she watches her older siblings.  I have been looking forward to more time alone with Bella, though, before we have a couple more! 

More than anything, back to school represents more than just the kids getting back to school.  It means that cooler weather is coming (which some years I look forward to) but somehow I am just not looking forward to that yet!!  It also means that my leisure, summer days are gone.  (Even if they aren't all leisure, summer days.)  It means that I have to do a LOT of driving, which gets old fast!  It also means that we will have a lot of activities to keep up with, like football, piano lessons, and ballet, just to name a few.  Most of all, it means that Bella and I will miss having the other kids home with us and I will miss their help!!  They are great entertainment for Clarabella too!!  Maybe the other thing it represents is that I have been focusing on relishing the few summer days we had left and keeping focused on that and now reality hit that this is another timeline I had set in my mind for a goal that by now we would have hopes of knowing when we would be getting Eden and Bereket.  We don't know.  We still have no idea.  Another month has gone by and their monthly updated pictures came in and instead of feeling excited to see how they are doing and how they have changed since the last month, my heart is just aching that they are NOT home!!