TRUST

I walked out to get the mail and when I was leafing through the mail I see it!!  I thought to myself, "Well, here it is.  It finally came."  My heart sank just a bit as I thought, "At least Cyrus warned us!! 

A while back Cyrus had a substitute teacher for one of his classes and he said that some of the kids were goofing off and although Cyrus did not participate in the wad throwing, he did smirk some!!  The teacher told the whole class that they would all get detention.  The next day Cyrus talked to his teacher and told him that he was not involved with the kids that were goofing out.  His teacher said that he did believe him but he was going to have to give him detention anyway since the sub teacher reported differently.

When I opened the letter from the Yreka High School, I realized that it was NOT what I thought it was but instead it was the certificate saying that Cyrus passed his driver's education exam and that when he becomes of age he has to take this pink slip to get his permit.  Just like that my heart when from sinking to leaping!!  

This all made me think about trust because Cade and I both believe and trust Cyrus was telling us the truth about the "happening" at school.  Now this does not mean that our boy teenager is perfect or that we are naive because boys will be boys, but he has shown great responsibility at school especially this freshman year.  

So here I have been thinking about trust.  We have a certain amount of trust with all our biological children, even little Bella!  I trust that Bella will not go across the highway by herself because we have taught and instilled a fear of the highway into her!  Lately with Eden we have talked about trust.  Something for her to understand and recognize is that she CAN trust Mom and Dad and that is it OKAY to trust us.  This doesn't happen overnight, I understand.  We can tell her that she can trust us and encourage her to trust us, but if she has learned in her lifetime that there were those that she was close to that she could not trust, this process of trusting will take much longer.  Sometimes I wish I knew more of what she has faced and then sometimes I am afraid to know because I see her learned responses.  More than anything, it takes time...... and much patience!!  I can take it personally.  That, right there, has been one of my biggest downfalls lately.  She acts like I must be the worst and meanest mother of all and then I think, "Well, she has to see again and again that we will protect her and that when she gets in trouble she will not go back to Ethiopia and that when I voice to her she is NOT in trouble, I mean it!!!"  

Thought of that hymn today "We are building day by day as the moments glide away, our temple which the world may not see, Every victory won by grace will be sure to find it's place in our building for eternity."  The words seemed to fit our circumstances very well even though I know the hymn is actually referring to our temple in our heart.  Really we are helping Eden build a safe temple in her heart and that will help her not only naturally but spiritually as well!