When Plans Change

Last night, after wrestling with all of my thoughts and questions due to change of plans, Cade looked at me and said, "You know, you are like Eden!"  I knew what he meant.  She doesn't do change well.  That was last night, before a new day that brought a whole new set of different plans. 

Last night the girls' baseball game was canceled after we were already to Happy Camp.  They were rained out, and rained out good at that!  They rescheduled for tonight, the night I was looking forward to having my aunt and her husband visit us from Florida.  I had already planned for the girls to miss baseball practice this once, with another game out of the way.  WRONG!  

When we walked in the door to our house, I had left one window above the kitchen sink cracked open.  Thankfully, I had went through the house and shut the rest of them and pulled the laundry off the line because of the dark looking storm clouds brewing in the sky.  Treva was the first in the house and she came back outside and said to me, "Mom, what is with all the glass?!"  "Huh?,,!"  I found one of my precious old heirloom teacups had fallen from the wind  coming through the crack in the window (the wind was CRAZY!) and it shattered on to the floor.  So, Eden comes in the house to find me getting ready to clean the mess and I stopped her (from getting in the glass) and redirected her and that was enough to change her plans and throw her off for the rest of the night.  It didn't matter that it wasn't safe for her to go through the mess and risk getting it in her foot!  She almost always comes home, goes right to the back door where she hangs her coat and school bag!  

So, yes, I understand Eden's personality sometimes.  Yet, I see that she is much more extreme because of her past and her coping mechanisms.  She has learned what works well for her and a lot of the times acts almost roboticly (don't think that is a word!).  I do believe that some natures and personalities handle adoption easier, even though it is never easy!  Still, I feel that if I can help her to overcome some things, she will have such a better life.  Yet, it all takes time, patience, time, assurance, time, love, etc!

Anyway, then last night Katreese came down with the stomach flu that Treva had last week and was SICK!  Another change of plans this morning.  The biggest of all, was that my aunt and her husband decided not to come after hearing of the sickness here at our house!  I don't blame them one bit!  I would most likely do the same if I were in their shoes, getting ready to get back on the airplane in a couple of days!!  Anyway, life is full of changes and disappointments and it hit me hard again, because I realized I was really looking forward to having them come visit us even amongst all the busy.  You know how it is when life feels hard and you know that having some one's influence on you where they have been through a lot of hard life experiences could truly be a time of inspiration and uplifting?!  That is the case here.  

In a couple of weeks we plan to attend our annual church convention.  It brings out a desperation in me to make it, yet I get caught up most every year fretting that something will come up to keep me from being able to be there!  I feel that my spiritual life depends on it and yet I know from previous experiences that the devil loves to use his tools to work...  I am hoping that our family gets through this flu bug BEFORE convention time!!!

love lilacs!! tis the season!!